Friday, July 29, 2011

Sumer Reading

Spent $80 on summer reading books -____-

$7.95 on Jane Eyre ( already read it my freshmen yr of h.s.)
$5.95 Sparknotes : The Oedipus Plays
$14.00 Sophocles: The Oedipus Cycle
$14.95 Cold Mountain
$15.00 Girl with the Pearl Earring
& re-newed B&N membership card so that's like another $20-$25

i would've saved so much online -___-

ugh not only do I have until Aug 17 to complete all of my assignments but in order to do that i need to finish reading these books

fucking hate thissss

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

colors of the wind



I've always liked this effect

Fortunate Fortune Cookie

It's been a couple of months since my last post but I've returned.
So much has happened since then.
For example, after contemplating suicide and writing a rough draft of the first part of my suicide letter I was "saved" by a fortune cookie.
Another thing that has happened to me : boyfriend!! ( 2.5 months) My first relationship!! He even met my family.-___- & then i broke up with him through a txt message >.<
I'm still seeing an old "friend".
& I've just about had it with school
I don't want to go back there for my senior year!! I refuse to go back there. 3 years of misery and loneliness. I'm going insane
My sister, Gabbie, she's heading out to N.Y.
Oh and I haven't heard news from my irish lover in like 2 months -___- i'm heart broken
I'm so stressed about my senior year of high school!!!!!!
I'm so stressed about applying to colleges
"" about getting recommendation letters from teachers i've never actually taken the time to chat with
i fucked up
I'm so stressed about driving to school and back
I'm so concerned about mother and her health problems
she recently noticed some balls coming out of what seems to be the palms of her hands, she says they are so painful and can't even hold a glass of water without complaining about the pain. The rent is overdue, father doesn't want to help her (they're separated) and neither of us has a job!!!

ugh i feel like im absorbing all of the negativity & stress, there's no way out without making things more complicated than they already are
idk what i'm going to do